May 20, 2023

A Sky Without Stars

Every night when the sun set and the darkness followed, we would weep till the return of light.

Every night when the sun left us and the dark sky lit up with stars all would stand looking upwards with amazement. 

My name is Stella and I live under the dark lightless sky. 

My name is Stella! I live within a universe of infinite other beings and possibilities, but I am most proud to say I live under a sky filled with stars. 

Hello there, I am Something, glorious daughter of Nothing and Everything, but here I am your narratorBefore is the story of a girl named Stella, or maybe I should say stories of a girl named stellaStella is a dweller within the great perplexing Omniverse af All ThingsThough All Things must recognizes Stella for her two alternate realities. 

Stella! was born under a sky filled with stars, hope and lightSadly in contrast, the other stella was born in a reality of no stars, hope, and only sunlightI am here to show you the two lives or maybe life in two realites, either way, of a girl named StellaI feel that we should start with the sky without stars. 

Every night when the sun set and the darkness followed we weep till the return of lightMy name is Stella and I live under the dark lightless skyI have everything I ever wantedA loving family loyal friends, a fearless cat, and a perfect boyfriendNothing could go wrong in my lifeI am the top student in my class, all A's, and the must obedient, attendant, responsible, courageous, divergent, and the list go's on foreverEven with all the love and happiness, I am so miserable. 

I have felt this way since I can rememberI have been searching my whole life for this thing that makes me miserableNothing I create and do matters to meMy perfect life they say is overshadowed by this unsated misery Only the light makes me happy. 

Mean while Stella experiences a perfect life, Stella on the other side of the Omniverse awakens. 

Every night when the sun left us and the dark sky lit up with stars all would stand looking upwards 

with amazementMy name is StellaI live within a universe of infinite other beings and possibilities, but I am most proud to say I live under a sky filled with stars. My people have nothingI live amongst a society were women and children and anyone who is disliked by the elder men in charge are lowest in civilizationMy Family and Friends long abandoned me and used me to clean their way to the good life filled with luxuriesNot long ago I found another abanded creature, a sissy dog who I have befriendedTogether hopefully we can get through this worldIn this world women are not allowed to learn, and are deemed incapable before we are given a chance. 

There isn't much about me, I am Nothing New to this world, and I am alone, alone and under a sky filled with happy dazzling lightsNothing could go wrong in my life, for all that is wrong has already come to pastEven with all this abandonment, hatred, and misery, I am so happy. 

I have felt this way since I can rememberI have been searching my whole life for this thing that makes me so happyEverything I create and do means Everything to meMy life I say is overshadowed by this great mystery before meOnly the stars make me happyMaybe someday I'll lighten this world like the stars. 

Amazing how these two we the same soulStella is both miserable and happyBut on the inside, they long for Something, something to fill this word they were born withStella under the dark sky now speaks. 

"Hello mother, how's your day today?" 

"Very well Stella, and just how is my lovely little girl feeling? " Spoke Stella's mother as she pinched  her cheek. 

"Fine mom!" She lied as she pushed away her mother's pinching hands. 

Stella felt a nawing emptiness inside her as she lied to her dear motherFoolish mother believed Stella and finished making pancakes for a breakfast style dinnerStella's father Mr. Kneel came into the room looking very sharp and well-groomed in a pin stripped tux. 

Hello my two lovely ladies, how's school Stella?” 

"Wonderful dad, all A's again!” Stella said as she clapped with cheers and glee. 

"That's my girl and how's dinner honey?" 

"Superb we're having breakfast for dinnerI thought I should spice up are lives and do something new!" said Rachel as she stirred the pancake mix. 

Stella felt trapped amongst her happy familyStella oftenly thought if everyone around her were miserable on the inside tooShe couldn't help but feel more horrible when looking at their cheerful happy faces acting as if Nothing was wrong in their world, as if their daughter wasn't hurting on the inside, as if they had no need to even existStella was driven insane by these overwhelming thoughts that are her alive from the insideShe could no longer stand their happy faces! 

Stella stormed out of the room and ran into her bedroomHer happy loving fam didn't even consider their daughter to be madStella cowered within her closet cornerThe shadows casted across her face she looked through her hands which covered her eyes from the horror of this happy would. 

Stella saw an idea project before on her working deskWhere she had laid her mirrors for her make-up and her toy kaleidoscope for fun, she saw a new device called the telescope appearStella blinked in amazement and the telescope disappear though only the toy and mirrors were left she had the invintion impressioned in her mind. 

While Stella Kneel all madden to the point she's seeing her thoughts around her, Stella Standings walks amongst the dark troubled world of equally miserable people. 

"Woof, woof!" barks a mysterious creature in the shadows behind the buildings in the long alley. 

Stella becomes super vigilant and filled with anxietyShe readies her first in case of a subsequent attackBelow her focus walks out at the shade a little sissy dog that kneels before her feetStella looks down and stares at the dog as the little sissy day stares back with big goggling eyes of hopeStella feels sympathetic for the dog and decides to pet its headStella kneels and looks at the collar on its neck. 

Stella pulls at the collar and throws it into nearby puddleThe dog jumps around cheerfully, rubbing against Stella's legStella walks out of the alley with the little cheerful dog following herStella carefully stays in the slums within the dark shadows away from any threats and elder menThe farther away from the city she travels the more numerous and bright the star becomes. 

Stella looks up amazed with her mouth opened slighty at the seemingly endless amount of space and stars in the night sky. 

"Hey I forgot to give you a name," said Stella as she turned around and pointed to the sissy dog following herI'll name you, Sirus.” 

Sirus cheered and ran off back to the cityStella was shocked and chased after her til she become to tired and Sirus was to far Stella felt betrayed and self-regretfulShe knew that trusting and hoping in her word was not away to survive or be comfortable 

Stella turned around and covered her face her hands and began to cry tears of betrayalShe 

no longer wanted to be abandon again not especially by the most humble of creaturesThrough her fingers a glimmer of starlight shined throughInstantly she saw the light and was relieved of her sorrows and remorseStella felt a force lift her head upwards to the stars. 

This Force had a gentle, loving hand that she has 

never felt before in this cruel harsh worldSoftly this force's hand pinched her cheek and howled a soft breeze through her hair. lifting her loose cloths and hair as if levitated by a supernatural power. 

Stella looked into the stars. The star light was so bright that its luminescence evaporated the darkness awayStars was Stella's Cure to all her ailments. 

Stella thought “I've should've known, betrayal I deeply know to heart,.. but your,.. always you have shined away my sorrows,..  Though never have asked anythingI promise you starlight,...  I'll give you something for your kindness -sobs- you will be rewarded, though I have nothing and nothing more, Please don't look upon me with such light beauty,..  I am to ugly, and I am not you." 

Stella still stood Standing while she sobbedNever falling to her knees or cowering away light and truthIn the distance she heard running little pattering of dog feet amongst puddles and concert roadsIt was Sirus she returnedStella turned around with a big smile on here face, she was not betrayedSirus had just fetched something, a giftIn Sirus mouth was an old device invited long ago by ancient astromonersIt was a telescope, for Stella.